Tuesday, April 27, 2010
a few thoughts....
Well...I was thinking today...I sort of enjoy a lot of my craziness and that has helped me out a lot. Becoming "responsible" is a wonderful thing, but I sure hope I don't lose the "magic" of my odd way of seeing things. I guess I felt kind of bad at school today. I have a spring program coming up and usually they are big whoop di dos with all kinds of amazing scenery made from boxes, duct tape, glue and glitter...and to me, the stages are BEAUTIFUL. This year's show will not have scenery...which is ok I guess, but as I look at some of my props and things, I wonder if I've been fooling myself. Before, I made up a "flag routine" and today I looked at the flags...and I wondered what I had been seeing before. I had thought they were quite beautiful, but today I only could see broomsticks from brooms that I bought at the dollar store, with red white and blue fringe for the flag and gold glitter on the tip....maybe pretty tacky? But why I am not seeing them as beautiful???? Please don't let me lose the magic that usually lets me see things through kid's eyes instead of grown up eyes....Just kind of a ramble. HOWEVER....another little insight kind of popped into my brain. I have no budget at school for programs....well, I do....but it's $100 total for both schools for the entire year. I realized today how much I have "supplemented" that budget over the years. I was frustrated today, because I wanted to buy some additional fringe, I might need some more bandanas or at least fabric to make some, I wanted some sequined trim and I need to purchase a $30 download of a CD for the show. ARRRRGH. Before, I would have just charged anything I thought I needed. Phooey. Now, because I'm "responsible" I'm not doing that..so I have to figure out some other ways to make things happen. :(
Posted by mae at Tuesday, April 27, 2010